SUDDEN DEATH

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Why did this happen? The Unexpected death of love ones is so hard to accept and most painful incident that might happen to every one of us. What makes it worse is that even though you were given the chance to be with them even for a short period of time and yet you ignore it, thinking that there is still another chance to be with together.  The lack of time to bring this important relationship to a positive close causes much anguish to those of us whose loved ones die without a warning. We wish that we could have known in order to say and do what we wanted to; Talking to my own experience, I wish I could have just one more brief moment with my cousin to tell her how much I care and loved her, apologize for ways I might have hurt her, explain why I treated her the way I did, or let her know what she really meant to me. Weeks ago I have been rushed to the hospital due to severe asthma attack. I almost lost my breath. Trying to catch my breath and felt like drowning and just cannot come up for air. I almost get near the edge of  death . Praise God I get recover. On the fifth day before I left the hospital despite having an inserted IV on my wrist .I just ask for my doctor’s approval, my cousin then visited me. Then the following day she started to get sick. She was as happy then as she narrates her new teaching experience in one of the upland barangays in our City. I gave her advice as she considered me “dite” (older sister) and had much teaching experience. But during her visit I haven’t chat her that much because I felt weak and I gasp my breath as I speak. I didn’t even felt that she left my room as my sister told me I fall asleep then maybe due to anti-histamine intake. Despite my health condition, I push myself to visit her in the hospital the other day when she’s already in comatose and can no longer hear what my heart says. I kneel and pray and ask for another chance for her life but maybe God has his own way to give our body a complete rest. I knew my cousin fight back for her life as she felt our presence by giving her moral support while she struggle for her life on ICU for almost three days.

We had no preparation and no time to gradually absorb the reality that in a snap of a finger everything is about to change dramatically. I felt miserable for my widowed Aunt and the sudden death of her daughter who happens to be her one and only child. It is really too traumatic for her. The physical and emotional shock appears to be more intense as days passes by. Lord helps us to understand that life is a gift and those gifts should not intend to keep long for us. Help us to realize that despite life is a sorrow, we can overcome the pain. It is an ironic but positive consequence of sudden death is that I appreciate and value life more now. God give me another chance to leave life according to His will, to share to other the real essence of living. Lord use me as your instrument for this purpose.