Moving on to my early 40’s without knowing what awaits me is a tough pill to swallow. I’m a person who always thinks of the future, & devising initiatives that will compliment my long-term plan is something to me that has to be treated with importance. I know there are many other problems in this world compared to my present predicament. But hey! Don’t get me wrong. This is only my way of expressing my thoughts. I have to feel what I feel because feeling is valid, right? Because generally, I believe we have no control over what life will throw at us. I just put all my trust in HIM.
However, as an independent career woman, I am, somehow, proud of the recent milestone that I accomplished the past year. Thank you, Lord! Seeing progress in my personal scorecard has made me feel grateful to Him for being my guide and reference in all my major decisions in life, supported by my family & closest friends. And somehow, I tap my shoulder for that, for a job well done. Again, this is one step closer to my aspirations in life where the end goal is self-fulfillment by helping my loved ones develop a balanced kind of life while giving the right amount of service to the people. I just have to master the art of Work and Life balance for me to fully succeed. This time my health should be given top priority over all others, or else, all this sacrifice will be for nothing.
Also, as I contemplate, I have just lately realized that I should stop pleasing people… That you have to accept the norm of society… That the more you progress, the more haters you get. So, either you stay mediocre and be in agreement with the world, or, be great and learn to rise above the haters. Still, I choose to remain calm and proactive. These best compliments my professional strategy of handling an organization’s common dispute. Thank God there's yoga to help me get to accept this situation at work with ease. (Breathe in, breathe out...). There is only one thing I have always hoped and prayed for --- that God allow me to reach my mid-50’s still active in government service. He may reward me with good strategy and compassion as a leader on how I will handle my emotional well-being so as not to contribute negatively on the mental health state of my fellow employees.
However, as time flies so fast, doing things outside of my comfort zone is something I should start initiating. It keeps you feeling alive and motivated at life. Even if it doesn’t work out quite as you’d hoped, what matters is you take some step to realize those long hopes and dreams. Life should be about occasionally taking risks. Not necessarily crazy or death-defying ones, but something that makes you feel accomplished on certain endeavors. That’s what matters most.
That dream? To enrich your life. To make your family and loved ones happy because they see you happy. To learn new skills. To help someone else achieve something. To see new places and have new experiences. With all these hopes and dreams, I am forever grateful to our Lord for His never-ending love and guidance to a simple woman like me who just aims for a simple kind of life surrounded by my loved ones.
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